What can i do about my alcoholic mom? ?

my mom is an alcoholic, shes even admitted it. shes tried to give up but she went back to the drink twice now. she can drink two bottles of cider and a half a bottle of wine starting at 10 everyday. i hate it when shes drunk, i cant talk to her, look at her, shes like a whole different annoyin person. plus now im unemployed, im always with her. i hate her for drinkin, i really just want to let it all out but i cant! im too scared of consequences. is there anythin you can do to help me cope instead of crying and self harming?